When reflecting on Dale’s recent changes, I’ve thought, “Our moments keep getting shorter.”
For most of Dale’s disease, we shared the present. Despite the losses of memory and language, we could be together in the moment. But this is waning now, too. Times of recognition and meaningful exchanges are brief and less frequent.
Our moments keep getting shorter.
When they occur, it is like being surprised by beauty…like looking up and seeing a glorious cloud formation, or a rainbow, or a spectacular sunset. In these moments I am suddenly stopped in my tracks. Fully present. In awe.
Such a moment happened earlier this month, on the evening of our 36th wedding anniversary.
Dale tires easily and goes to bed early. However, he doesn’t always rest easily. Confusion increases. I often see him pointing up toward the corners of the room, saying things I don’t understand. Sometimes my presence seems to disturb rather than comfort him.
When I went in the bedroom that evening, I found him awake and making eye contact with me. I knelt beside the bed so we could be face to face. His eyes were clear and focused. He smiled and said, “You’re pretty!” I thanked him and told him I loved him. He returned the “I love you” but soon his attention was elsewhere. I held his hand and he looked at me again, saying, “You’re pretty!” and then “I love you” in response to my saying it. For some minutes we were together like this. Together in our moments. Connected in love. A precious anniversary gift.
“Sometimes you picture me, I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear what you’ve said
Then you say, ‘Go slow’, I fall behind
The second hand unwinds.
If you’re lost, you can look and you will find me
Time after time.
If you fall, I will catch you, I will be waiting
Time after time.”
From Cyndi Lauper’s “Time After Time,” the song we selected as “ours” and danced to during our wedding reception, June 2, 1985
Images and Reflections 
Dear Norma, It seems that your reflections grow more exquisite with each release. How generous of you to share this journey with all those that love you and Dale. Sending so much love,Donna
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Thank you, dear Donna. We love you!
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Norma, I don’t know how you do it, but your posts are always just what I need to be reminded of! I am losing my dad like you are losing Dale. Dad is 100 years old, so it isn’t unexpected. I just thought it would be sudden, not dragged out at an agonizingly slow pace as his mind leaves his body behind. You give me strength, patience, and encouragement. Thanks for sharing!!!
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Dearest Norma and Dale. Happy Anniversary 💞. I agree with Donna about the increased richness of your reflections. What a gift of presence on the eve of your anniversary. I pray for you and Dale often for peace, acceptance, resilience. You and Dale are in my heart, always. I love you both, treasure the times that we had, laugh sometimes, weep sometimes for the way times were and are. MaryElizabeth
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Thank you, dear MaryElizabeth, for your kind words and prayers. It’s a comfort to be in your heart. We love you!
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Thank you for reading and sharing, Barbara. Gosh, it’s so hard–no matter the age or speed. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your dad.
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Norma, I’m so sorry I have not written and I’ve gotten 2 more of your beautiful blogs. Your last blog was particularly moving. Thanks so much for sharing so much of yourself and your feelings through your words and also sharing Dale’s feelings and actions. Think of you and Dale a lot and also pray for you all a lot! Love, Betty
On Tue, Jun 15, 2021 at 10:47 AM Images and Reflections wrote:
> Norma Sessions posted: ” When reflecting on Dale’s recent changes, I’ve > thought, “Our moments keep getting shorter.” For most of Dale’s disease, we > shared the present. Despite the losses of memory and language, we could be > together in the moment. But this is waning now, too. ” >
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